hungry for some food for thought
but lectures just make my mind rot.
they program me like some robot.
the others don't seem as distraught,
as me...
you see...
don't care...
aware, of the games they play
to make me stay
in line
it's fine
for now, i'll play
along
belong
and pretend I'm just like another one of you.
- posted by chris @ 11:34 AM

 
what i want
is for my life to matter.
as another day
slips away, behind me.

did i leave a mark?
did my existance matter?
and on the evening of my last day
was I closer than in the morning?

when my energy
flows back into all
and i am no longer me
my existance ceased
i hope i mattered.
i hope i mattered to you.
- posted by chris @ 9:20 PM

 
I thought i knew
just what i wanted
till I got it
then I thought it
just another disappointed
let down dream.
why are girls so fucking mean?

Go away I
don't need to hear
how you wish you'd
just faced your fears.
Now you want to talk about all
your remorse
please don't suggest intercourse.

Back and forth
and round and round
we go again.
Thought this time
we were going to just be friends.
Stop the ride cuz I want off
it's lost its fun.
You and me are just not right
and now I'm really,
really, really, really done.
- posted by chris @ 8:12 AM